증명

 

 

 

 

 

 

   

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

       

 

 

 

                                                        내 눈물의 길을 타고

                                                        네가 달려와 주었다.

 

                                                        그게 너였다.

 

 

 

 

                                                        서러운, 일치

                                                        내가 슬퍼 네가 아팠고

                                                        네가 아파 내가 슬펐다.

 

 

 

 

                                                        백세주를 7병 마셨다 했다.

 

 

                                                        술보다 독한,

                                                        기억을 앓으면서

 

                                                        한국으로 와….,

                                                                                    Terry Palka                                                           싫다고 했다.

                                                                                                                                     

                                                                                

 

                                                                                                                                                               내 자체가 고통이라던

                                                                                                                                                               그 어느 날의 너의 말이

                                                                                                                                                               비로소, 후두두

                                                                                                                                                               마른 꽃잎으로 날리더니

                                                                                                                                                               울컥, 가슴에 떨어지는.

 

 

                                                                                                                                                               그대가 닿아.

 

 

 

                                                                                                                                                               감기냐고 물었다.

                                                                                                                                                               나는 아니라고 했다.

 

 

                                                                                                                                                               곰. 푸우라 했다.

                                                                                                                                                               너는 아무 말도 하지 않았다.

                                                                                                                                                               파르르 감각을 세운 네 손끝이

                                                                                                                                                               내 팔을 천천히 훑고 간 후에야

                                                                                                                                                               나는 알 수 있었다.

                                                                                                                                                               봄볕처럼 하나씩 부서져 내리는

                                                                                                                                                               빛, 그 조용한 평화

                                                                                                                                                               이것이 뜨거운 불로도

                                                                                                                                                               네가 삼켜 참아야 했던

                                                                                                                                                               마음이라는 걸

                                                                                                                                                               죽어도 되돌 수 없는

                                                                                                                                                               사랑이었다는 걸.

                                                                                                                                                               비로소.

 

 

 

       가슴에 그댈 덜어내며 참기 힘든 고통 속에도                                                                                            내 눈물의 길을 타고

       신음 한번 못 지른 여자에요                                                                                                                   네가 달려와 주었다.

       쉽게 나를 잊어가라고 미안함 갖지 말라고

       사랑한단 말 억누른 나에요 

                                                                                                                                                               그.게.너.였.다.

       행복하라고 그댈 위해 버리는

       내 마음  헛되게 말아요

 

       나 말없이 가더라도 내 아픔 보더라도 

       그대 못 본 척 지나요 

       그 맘 흔들리지 말아요                                                                                                                          증명, 2008-08-02          

       못난 여자에 눈물이 그댈 막아도             

       한 걸음씩 두 걸음씩 그렇게 멀리 가줘요             

 

       숨어서 그대 바라보며 치일듯한 그리움에도             

       인사 한 번 못하는 여자에요             

       좋은 사랑하며 살라고 다신 날 기억 말라고             

       시린 맘 다시 옭아맨 나에요             

 

       웃고 살라고 그댈 위해 버리는             

       내 마음 헛되게 말아요             

 

       나 말없이 울더라도 내 아픔 보더라도             

       그대 못 본 척 지나요             

       그 맘 흔들리지 말아요             

       못난 여자에 눈물이 그댈 막아도             

       한 걸음씩 두 걸음씩 그렇게 멀리 가줘요             

 

       가슴 속 저 가슴 끝에 기억 속 저 기억 끝에             

       그대를 보내며 울음을 삼키며             

       눈물 빛에 물든 사랑 노을이 지네요             

 

       나 언젠간 말할게요 내 맘 다 전할게요             

       그대 안에 내 모습이 세월에 무뎌질 그때쯤             

       못난 여자에 사랑이 그대 그리워             

       한 걸음씩 두 걸음씩 그렇게 따라왔다고             

       그리운 그대 찾아 왔다고   

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

          

 

                  

 

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